Yet people respect me more when I pretend my wins are easy.

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When a person’s self-esteem is so low that they never feel smart, talented, or pretty enough, they’re left with two options. They can either trudge through their life wallowing in doubt. Or, they can find something, anything, to grasp onto.

I held onto my work ethic. I’m not naturally intelligent…

Turns out I’m not perfect at that either.

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I know that to you, internet stranger, I probably seem like a perfectly composed, robot-like, human. Maybe I even wake up at 5:00:00 am every morning to go through an alphabetically-categorized to-do list. Who knows? You certainly don’t. I could be perfect, head-to-toe.

But I’m not. I know, crazy, right…

Psychology tells us to practice compassion instead.

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My little brother spends nights pacing around my parents’ kitchen. He tries to hide his frustration, but he doesn’t stop pacing in circles. Something is eating him up inside.

“What’s wrong?”

“I wasn’t productive today, I need to stop being so lazy, I have no willpower.” Logically, I should suggest…

But that just made it worse. Now, I influence emotions instead

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I used to be so angry. It wasn’t fair! My friends, with normal functioning brains, lived easily. Taking a shower wasn’t a battle. Eating regularly was their normal.

They don’t need to get into a boxing ring with their mind every day.

Sure, my friends had their problems. But their…

Alessia Autumn

Hey, we’re both tiny specks in a universe full of stars that happened to exist at the same time. Cool!

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